i had a thought the other day…
…and it lead me to a realization that is important to keep reminding myself of, and anyone else who wants to remind me is welcome to…you are …you really are…free. regardless of legalities, and obligations, your mind,your person and your soul is yours and yours only…so let it be!
it is strange how instinctively i still feel controlled, nervous, and afraid, and its sad that for awhile i not only reclused but let that fear inhibit my ability, my desire, and my drive to design, express, and create… i have forgotten how to simply…be. well, that stops now!
over the last little bit i have written and rewritten this first post…how can i do this and not be negative to everything that has happened, or not skirt around the truth…or should i just omit all the hurtful stuff that happened…on and on my thoughts have gone, and then it hit me…you have always prided yourself in being real…raw…so why stop now…so, i am sure over time the story will unfold, but for now, for me, for my emotional me, let’s keep to the facts…here goes…i am no longer with heidi grace designs, and i am starting over…(wow…it was not as hard to write as i thought it would be, although i am still crying…) iknow its been quite awhile…and everyone already knows, but it was still extremely hard for me to publicly announce…admit…let go of…that has been the hardest…letting go…
how do i feel about all this…truthfully the real, raw truth…i am still not sure how it all makes me feel, and i am ok with that for now…there is too much to feel and still too much to process. can you really be devestated but releaved all at the same time? i will keep you posted when things get clearer.
it’s strange how this feels weird…it is my blog…MINE…so heidi, you have now given yourself permission to exclaim what ever you want to the world and most importantly to yourself…just be!
seriously…how do i start this after so much…craziness?
most important…a report on the family…it has been almost 10 months since my old blog was removed…and so you can only imagine how much my darlings have grown…it is insane! I LOVE THEM SO VERY MUCH!!!! ireland and reagan both walk, talk, sing, dance, play, argue, listen, repeat, observe, learn, eat, sleep, snatch, get-into, sneak, beg, stomp,clap, cry, laugh, scream, sass, and love. they are so amazing. for real, having them has been a dream in the making!
so…my newest adventure…well,
i started a new company called…’clever’
check out my site here. it is a little bit of everything…(pretty much anything that does not fall into my non-compete…which is not a lot, but still plenty to work with) it mostly consists of children’s clothing, children’s decor and one of a kind art pieces.
i opened a little boutique here in my home town where i sell things, and eventually when i get my act together i will open my etsy shop. i do a little bit of wholesale too. it has been so awesome to put together a children’s line! it is freeing, fun, and…it is totally liberating to be on my own again…it took my a long time to be able to say that…but seriously, i am so thrilled to just be creating again, with no boundaries, and no expectations.
i promise to post pics of the shop and some of the newest clever creations soon!
